Summer is in full swing in New York, and I spent today wandering around Prospect Park and the Botanical Garden. I may even have fallen asleep on the Cherry Esplanade, where occasionally the wind would blow a scented breeze from the adjacent Cranford Rose Garden, in full bloom right now… Mmm….
I’ve been in denial about certain things about myself and my life, (quite sizable things actually…) and I’m waking up now. This week brought a couple of hard-core realizations, and it’s been challenging, for sure. There have been many levels of waking up within the last few years, for the sleep was deep. Kind of like a real-life “Inception.” I don’t know which level I’m at right now, but I am certainly more awake than ever. And part of that awake-ness is knowing when I simply need a day amidst the flowers and the trees.
I’m creating a new life for myself. The Janita from a couple of years back would be in awe of the Janita today. A day like today would have been impossible for me then, as I wouldn’t have been peaceful enough to enjoy it. And this in the middle of quite a lot of turmoil… But I’m proud of having given myself today the gift of unscheduled time and relaxation. I am learning that I deserve it.
With gratitude, I send you summer vibes from Brooklyn.
“To regret one’s own experiences is to arrest one’s own development. To deny one’s own experiences is to put a lie into the lips of one’s own life. It is no less than a denial of the soul.”
― Oscar Wilde, De Profundis