I am not used to winning fights. Truth be told, I was not even encouraged to defend myself as I was growing up, ever, as far as I can remember. I suppose defending oneself was considered fighting in my former surroundings…. And fighting, of course, was a Very Bad Thing.
The way I see it now is that sticking up for oneself is an absolute must in this world. I find myself using the skill more and more. Not needlessly, may I add. A lot of situations will never be resolved; a lot of people refuse to ever see what they did wrong, but the fact that I am now able to express my hurt or dismay to them gives me some peace of mind. It allows me to let go and move on.
Year 2011 has changed this about me: I have started fighting back. And I am happy to say I am fucking winning. A couple of days ago I was going through the songs that I’ve been writing for my new album and I was heartened to see the theme that emerges: defiance. That’s a pretty good common thread, methinks… I can get behind that.. Life will be very different from now on for me.
Every artist dips his brush in his own soul, and paints his own nature into his pictures. ~Henry Ward Beecher