Within the last few days I’ve been learning the profound importance of being in the moment… There are many obstacles to this though, including a half-a-million reels of film running through my head at any given time; all those unconscious memories of what has come before… It is hard to experience any moment for what it is or see people for who they are, when the past colors and darkly animates everything and everyone I’m looking at…
My new year’s resolution is to consistently attempt to turn those reels off; to remain present, so as to live in reality instead of some slightly altered version of the past. In truth, people and experiences are all unique and novel, if one is mindful enough to really be there to experience them. I don’t want to hang all my garbage on every situation, on every new person that I meet. And believe me, I have lots of garbage to go around! But that’s just it: it’s garbage. Those films suck and are out-of-date. If I remain in the moment, the films stop.
Mine is a challenging resolution, and possibly a life-long project… But through my experiences this week, I know that it’s the only way for my wounds to heal: to stop injuring myself (and others) with my old projections from the past.
“If you have one eye on yesterday, and one eye on tomorrow, you’re going to be cockeyed today.” – Anonymous
Have a fruitful, soulful and adventurous year 2012 everyone!