“All this buttoning and unbuttoning…” read an anonymous 18th-century suicide note. I can relate. Life can get pretty tiresome at times, with all this raveling and unraveling… Apparently the word ravel even means the same thing as unravel, in addition to meaning the opposite of it. So there you go. I’m talking about those times, when you really feel like you’re getting somewhere, and then consequently finding yourself back, seemingly, at square one.

One of my favorite movies is The Groundhog Day, starring Bill Murray. I think it perfectly portrays the essence of what we’re dealing with, when it comes to life, provided we’re not in the middle of a natural disaster, for example. Every day is essentially the same, if we decide to live it that way. Every day, we have a million choices on what to do with our lives, and yet often we choose to do what we’ve always done, because it feels safer.

I have a disorder that is known as PTSD. Post-traumatic stress disorder. I have lived with it for most of my life. A lot of the fear that I’m pushing through has become inbuilt, and I can hardly remember living without it. That’s why this process called life has been extra-challenging for me. But I am choosing to do like Bill Murray (once he gets over his frustration)… Like him, I have decided to build healthy routines on top of healthy routines and I trust that one of these days, I’ll wake up next to Andie McDowell. (You know…that being the symbolic equivalent of it.)
Apparently the truth is, we get better. We really do. We just need to decide to do so, one day at a time.