To me it is obvious that nothing in this world operates on its own. It’s true for everything… Legs are good for running, but trying to do it with just one leg–not so easy.
It is slightly unnerving that there are so many separate moving parts in every given…well…thing. For example, this week I discovered, that in order to have good self-esteem, I’d need to be comfortable in my skin in All Areas of my life. It’s not enough just to be confident in one, or even most. If I put myself down in one area of my life, it trickles down to everything else that I do. It’s good to be aware of one’s weaknesses, but it’s another thing all together, to be needlessly insecure. But that shit can be worked on, thankfully.
I’ve suffered from a lot of abuse from a lot of people in my life, but I’m breaking the cycle now. Through coming to terms with my own abuse, I’ve become very sensitive to evidence of it around me. Whether it’s racism, or cultural, religious or dogmatic oppression…I see evidence of it every time I get on the subway here in New York. When you open your eyes to something, it’s almost impossible not to see it.
One area where I’m particularly sensitive to abuse is the environment. If we weren’t so abused in our own lives, I don’t think we’d be so quick to do it to the environment either. Abuse creates anger, disconnect and mindlessness, among other sucky things. The worst part about abuse, is that it doesn’t stop once the abuser is no longer around. It becomes our reality–it continues on in our heads and we pass it forward. How are we going to be kind to the environment, if we can’t even be kind to ourselves?
The reason why being kind to nature is important, is that we can’t live without it. The weather is already starting to turn against us, with unprecedented storms, floods, fires and droughts due to global warming… According to an article written by Al Gore for Rolling Stone-magazine, there is a “constant dumping of 90 million tons of heat-trapping emissions into the Earth’s thin shell of atmosphere every 24 hours.” That’s abuse if anything is!
I’m not trying to paint a picture of doom and gloom here. I have a lot of hope, although I know that this issue is urgent for all of us. These days, I regularly ask myself the question: What can I do as an individual to be kinder to our planet, and to help heal it? This blog is one thing that I’m doing. I am, needless to say, trying to connect with you. I don’t write this only for myself, even though I do find it very therapeutic.
This quote comes to mind:
What do we live for, if it is not to make life less difficult to each other? -George Eliot (Mary Ann Evans), novelist (1819-1880)
Through my own experience in this world, what I see, is that being kinder to ourselves, will inevitably lead to us to being kinder to everything that surrounds us: the nature, other people, animals… Becoming aware, if or when we are abusing ourselves is key.
We are all connected. One leg can’t run without the other.